So I have decided that there are way too many emotional triggers at home that are stoping me from losing the six pound nightmare that happened to me over the last 48 hours. The transfusions were awful, and I am so unhappy. Finding it hard to get dressed this morning as a consequence of the weight gain. I have cried three times today about it. More like sobbed. The emotional exertion made me so tired I fell asleep. I am very depressed.
So from Monday, I am going to my Nanny's house- away from the emotional crap and all the food at home that keeps being shoved in my face by my parents.
I am going for 1 week, I will take my reading with me, I am currently finishing 'Good wives' by Louisa May Alcott. I am also going to take my stress tapes with me, both 'The Secret' and also Paul McKenna reducing stress and Anxiety. I will also work on a massive motivation project board, this will give me something to do with my hands and a focus. I will not be on Facebook, i sometimes think its good to have a break from social media sites and reduce interaction with the outside world there is less emotional crap over there, it's quiet and I will be able,to control my food intake. I won't be able to weigh in for a week and from then on I'll be hopefully in a weight loss space so that when I come home after a week I can continue my journey.
Previously I have used this method and it has worked well, I will blog every day as I think the journal like format is good for me to write in.
Plan for use of time whilst in detoxifying environment.
8am- wake up, get showered and dressed.
8:30am- watch the news or something on TV.
9am- Breakfast- 1/2 carton of soup and glass of squash-104
9:15-10:15- Read book.
10:15-11am- Stress tape.
11-11:30- watch programme on 40d/start writing my own book.
11:30-12pm-blog
12-1pm- motivation board, or something artistic with magazines.
1pm- Lunch- soup weight watchers with a glass of squash-74
1:30-3:30pm- read book.
3:30-5:30- siesta/continue an activity outlined.
5:30-6:30pm, prepare dinner for Nanny.
6:30- prepare my own dinner- soup and glass of squash-74.
7-9- reading.
9-10:30- TV
10:30pm- wash face, clean teeth and bed.
Total- 252. Follow this plan for one week. In treatment this would be 1/16th of full plan. Hope I see results.
I feel confident this will be useful to me and then In one week, I will be able,to review my weight loss.
Writing this down and knowing I have a plan has been helpful.
Will try this plan at home tomorrow and see how it works out, I know that the stress puts added pressure on following a plan.
Blog tomorrow, comments always welcome. Xxx
