I haven't been on for a while as I have had a horrible time recently. For 1 thing, my local team won't stop calling I am beginning to view it as harassment , 6 times a day To make an appointment, don't they get it I AM NOT INTERESTED.
Secondly I went to my GP at one weight and he took some bloods and said I was severely dehydrated and had to go to hospital for a drip. I got given 3 litres of IV fluid and gained 1/2 a stone overnight, I have subsequently almost returned to the 'weight I was' at the end of my stay in treatment. I am gutted and now do not want to leave the house, I have today cried, screamed, self harmed, considered whether life is worth living and now don't feel its possible to go back to my job. 7lbs in a day-they will Definitely notice and my clothes are all tight, why don't i just end the agony now?
The rehydration has puffed out what used to bea flat stomach and filled up my legs, my hip bomes are nearly non existent. I am repulsive walking and I wish at the moment I wasn't here. So now I am going to have to ring my GP surgery on Monday and inform him I am 3kg heavier, I am so embarrassed, ashamed and disgusted by myself. I wouldn't feel the need to inform my GP but, I have an appointment soon and he weighs me, and I don't want to have to explain there and then, that no I didn't stuff ,yield constantly from the minute he previously saw me.
I won't be going back to work tomorrow, and I certainly will be restricting, I am at rehydrated weight and its time to get down to business. I want to lose ideally 7lbs this week or at least 5lbs. I know it's a LOT but I won't be comfortable or semi comfortable atleast until I do.
Goals for this week- 1) rigidly stick to food plan.
2) succeed in losing weight, as set by band.
3) Blog everyday to be accountable.
4) weigh in tomorrow to,get a starting point and Saturday next week to review progress.
Has anyone else had massive weight gain after IV fluids, i didn't pee out any of it and. Am so depressed I can't bear to look at my body? Dreading a shower or bath later.
Laxatives and Valium needed tonight, I got no sleep at the hospital as the Canular was put in the smallest of veins on my upper arm.
It's bright and sunny outside and I just want to crawl I see the covers and hide.
Until tomorrow, goodnight and if I blog tomorrow ou'll know I survived not sure whether that's a good thing or not really. Xxx
